drink up, baby

industria — Thu, 17 Nov 2011 05:29:07 +0000

industria — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 06:12:07 +0000

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industria — Tue, 15 Nov 2011 04:48:16 +0000

id crisis

industria — Fri, 17 Jun 2011 01:52:17 +0000

It’s pretty common for me to stumble upon something inspirational, or beautiful or just sorta neat and for it to cause a bout of inspiration. I am constantly awed by the art of artists and constantly disappointed in my own work. I suffer from reasonably severe inferiority issues (although I’m sure most people do), and this causes me to doubt myself quickly when making attempts at something. A drawing or model doesn’t work well and I just sorta give up. It’s stupid, and I know it’s stupid. I can’t grow if I don’t continue to draw and practise but I have such a hard time with that.

I’m constantly wondering what it is that really makes me me. My clothes, my body, my basic form?

Is it what I create and leave behind that defines me?

introspective
Sing Around It | Nizlopi
art!, the human condition a la bryan

i am bryan’s attempt

industria — Tue, 29 Mar 2011 04:52:55 +0000

Today marks the first day in my attempt at a daily sketch journal a la EmiTown, and I’m reluctantly hopeful. I have tried to do something like this before and I always get scared of failure, or success or whatever, freak out and give up. I just have a really hard time sucking, and I suck at drawing. I know I’m not awful, but drawing is not something that I’m strong or consistent with. When I try and I can’t put down what’s in my head on paper I end up getting depressed. Trying to turn a new leaf, though. I’m tired of comparing myself with others all the time; I want to succeed of my own accord with my own style. Even if it’s not as pretty or refined or structured as I want, I am going to get this shit out of my brain once a day.

I even bought a (pretty expensive) sketchbook as encouragement for myself to keep at this.

I think I need this.

In other news, I don’t think I’ve ever felt as pathetic in leading Casual Murder as I do when I’m interacting with . I just can’t get it out of my head that they seem to do far better than us and I can’t seem to pull Casual Murder back to what it once was. I’m trying really hard but the core people in the guild have either left or are two busy to do anything regularly which is just really frustrating and depressing. I’ve felt like the guild has been slipping through my fingertips for a while and I need to do something to sort of revitalize it. I’m hoping if I just start scheduling more events that people will be more active.

That, and maybe we need to rely on to help us. I’m not entirely sure they want to, though. Blah.

Thoughtful
Wind | Akeboshi
art!, sketchjournal, wow!rant

so tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?

industria — Fri, 25 Mar 2011 02:33:42 +0000

There are so few times in recent months that I find myself actually inspired. I’ve had the desire to create or draw or write, but never the inspiration or motivation to actually do anything with that desire. I half-heartedly wrote in my journal the other-day and when I was finished I titled the page “the art of the un-inspired” and it sort of struck a chord with me. Living away from Eva for the last seven months has been.. an experience to say the least. Living away from my muse and my other half leaves me constantly fighting this state of apathy. It does give me something to be grateful for, though. Even after almost two weeks of very little communication we can pick up a conversation naturally and it just feels right. It also let’s me revel in these moments of inspiration and creation, as few and far between as they’ve been.

inspired
Owl City – The Saltwater Room
art!

deadbryanday

industria — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 04:53:32 +0000

There are some extended periods of time where my brain just doesn’t process information. I don’t really take anything in, I don’t output anything of value and life just seems to coast by while I’m sort of in sleep mode. I find these times come a lot more often when I’m really missing Eva and it’s so hard to do anything during them.

Life is full of WoW and work and WoW and work. But that being said, I’ve gotten a bit of stuff done on the wordpress and I’ll be (hopefully) updating my portfolio soon.

I get to see Eva this week and I’m not sure I could be happier about it.

blank
Jim Gaffigan – King Baby
deadbryanday, random

Oh. My. Wow.

industria — Sat, 26 Feb 2011 07:25:50 +0000

That is all. :D

indescribable
No King Rules Forever | Vedrim
wow!rant

and the coding continues

industria — Thu, 24 Feb 2011 05:51:20 +0000

I’ve been continually updating the formatting and code that runs this little wordpress over the last four days, just to clean it up (it really needed to be tidied) and to fix a few of the problems that I’ve had with it since I adopted / cobbled the theme together. Added a fancy navigation bar, finally got my post Meta-Data fuctioning and I polished the over-all design quite a bit (all my channels are the same width! Hooray!) I am left with an issue, though, and it’s one that’s going to take quite a bit of testing to really figure out.

I have no idea what to do with my current side-bar. I enjoy the side-bar because of it’s function. It’s a quick, easy way to navigate, find out who I am and hold a bit of info. But currently it’s really out of place because of the nav-bar I added in earlier. So I might be taking that side-bar and putting in on the top (sorta like this), but I’m not sure. I’ve got to see what that would look like and see if I could keep it formatted in a way that I still find pleasing. It’s not something I can know until I do it and it’s going to be some what of a brain-wracker to make it do that. I think.

I’m still pretty rusty on this whole PHP / CSS thing. I also have to start looking into some good Thumbnail Gallery scripts to build my portfolio with.

and then I have to do some art to put in it..

Accomplished
Many Lives -> 49MP | Final Fantasy
code monkey, 3d!art

level up!

industria — Tue, 22 Feb 2011 06:06:38 +0000

There is something so incredibly satisfying for me in PATV. The production value is so high for an independently produced web-series and the music commissioned from artist like David Pencil and Alex Mauer (whose site is currently down. :c) is phenomenal. The cuts and shots are awesome and the stories that are told are almost always touching. It’s almost ridiculous how human they present the people who work at Penny Arcade, how much it makes me wish I was friends with them. I realize that is the intention of PATV, and in that manner it is a resounding success. Penny Arcade looks like a phenomenal place to work; great people, creative work and incredible kindness all wrapped up in a neat little bundle. It’s mind-blowing to think that these two guys have created the empire that is Penny Arcade on a webcomic. They’ve created and fostered a community of gamers that is unlike any other pop-culture community out there. I can easily say that PAX is the convention I would choose to go to if I had any choice and not just because of the developers or whatever would be showing there.. but because of the vibe those conventions have. Or at least, the vibe they supposedly have.

PA: Half-Way House (Ep. 11) by Davidpencil

We started Ryan’s D&D campaign this weekend as well which has begun to rekindle my love for that niche of geekdom. It’s a nice break to just get together with some of the guys from work and have a silly but relaxing evening of goblin murdering. It’ll take me a little while to really loosen up and starting having a really comfortable time there, but everyone else is pretty into it so it’s not hard to sort of let those inhibitions go.

It’s gotten me thinking about my grand scheme of a campaign that’s been cooking in my brain ever since my last trip to the Montreal International Games Summit. I’ve been flipping through my old notes and I’m going to start compiling them into a slightly neater and more well developed idea in order to, hopefully, set up a campaign for Eva and the others to take part in the summer, once Eva gets back to the island and we’re living in town.

I think I can sincerely say that I’m starting to go a little bit insane living out in the country, now. I’ve been here eight months(!) and I didn’t have plans to move out of here until July.. but I’m starting to think now that I should try to get out of here sooner.

Also! I’ve done quite a few edits to my wordpress, this afternoon! I actually spent the better part of today neck-deep in CSS and PHP in order to fix some of the crap that I’ve always taken issue with in this layout. I think it’s a bit better now, but I’ve still got quite a few things that I want to polish and change. And then it’s on to re-doing my portfolio!

chipper
Half-way House | David Pencil
code monkey, dungeons and dragons, guh pei